For so many years I heard about meditation and how good it is for us. I tried many times to start a practice with no success. Believing meditation was not for me, I gave up trying and became the occasional meditator.
Then in December of 2012, while reading a newsletter from a vedic astrologer with whom I have had several readings, I saw that he was offering meditation classes. I wanted to do them but the cost seemed high so I put it aside, again. Upon further investigation on his website I discovered a 2 CD meditation class. I decided to try it. I downloaded it and listened to it right away. To my surprise his style of teaching really resonated, and I meditated for the first time with ease.
The part that did the trick for me was when he said “it’s absurd to think that there are not thoughts in meditation.” There are thoughts in meditation? All this time I thought I wasn’t meditating if I had thoughts. I thought I wasn’t successful at meditating because I could not stop the thoughts. As it turns out there are thoughts, sounds, sensations, emotions, all of it, happening as a mixture. A mixture! Wow! I don’t know why I hadn’t put that together before, watching the mixture in the mind and the thoughts coming in effortlessly, with no direction from me, nothing to do, just notice and be. What a relief!
I’ve been meditating for 20 minutes twice a day, morning and evening since buying that CD, and I love it! My body loves it, my mind loves it, and I feel really good. I feel purposeful while doing the simplest of tasks, walking, even doing the dishes. I feel happy for no reason, I have more energy, and I need less sleep.
The resistance to meditation is gone. I feel the deepest gratitude for whatever happened, for whatever shifted, thank you, thank you, thank you. I didn’t make it happen, it is happening and I am here to greet it.
I will now include insight meditation as part of the Hawaii residential retreats with some instruction for those who need and/or want it.
Namaste & Aloha!